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Jari-jemarinya pantas menekan papan kekunci piano usang milik arwah Hana.
Setiap kali kekunci itu ditekan, satu melodi pun berlagu.
Melodi indah itu memenuhi ruang kamar, melodi yang bercampur aduk.
Melodi yang sukar untuk diungkapkan.
Separuh isinya mengandungi kesedihan, separuh lagi mengandungi kebahagian.

Makin lama makin kuat papan kekunci itu ditekan. Seolah-olah melepaskan amarah.

"Enough!" laung Elina seraya memeluk aku dari belakang. Melodi indah itu terhenti.
Tanpa sedar air mataku menitis laju. Bersama-sama Elina.

"That's enough..."

Dan aku menangis semahunya dalam pelukan hangat Elina sebelum tenggelam dalam perasaan yang menyesakkan.

Aneh, dua tiga menjak ini, aku sering didatangi mimpi yang sama.
Orang yang sama. Cuma aku tak tahu siapa.
Senyum yang sama, sejak aku mula mengalami mimpi itu kira-kira 12 tahun yang lalu.

Kalau mimpi itu mainan tidur, kenapa mimpi aku semua ada satu perhubungan?
Seolah-olah nak memberi sesuatu petunjuk.

Perang apa yang sedang aku lalui?
Kenapa segalanya terasa bagai realiti?
Bukan deja vu mahupun lucid dream...

Siapa perempuan itu?
Apa yang nak dia sampaikan?
Entah, aku tak tahu.

It's 2 am and I'm shattered.
Pushing every emotion away.
It's killing my soul.
I'm tired of living.
And fighting this never ending battle.

My chest hurts so much, when that dream comes again.

But,
Please come back to my dream.
I think I've taken a liking to you.

Why can't you show me your face? Why is your smile is all can see?

How tiring it is, to live a life.
Where every few days, I fall down into this hole.
With absolutely no energy to escape.
The foreboding arms of sadness reach out to grab me.
And as usual, I have nowhere to run.

Your warm silky lips, brushed against mine.
And once again, I was dancing in the heaven.

I could spend the whole day with you.
But as soon as you walk out of my sight.
The pain of missing you, feels like a gunshot wound to the heart.

Your deep blue eyes are deeper than any sea, than any ocean could ever be.

"But tell me, inside. You know what I mean, deep down where you keep yourself, how is everything?"

Little do you know, all I'm trying to do is protect you.
From the monster in my head.

She say nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.

Leaving me with a question.

Who is she?